Wednesday, September 2, 2009
The troubles of being young!!!
I honestly haven't been here long enough to know any problems that are here at UVU. Being fresh from high school has me a little oblivious. So, I'm happy to say that I don't know of any problems. That's a plus! The only thing that's bothering my mind, my body for that matter, is a very difficult and complicated situation I am in right now. I'm in love with a boy that I barely even know. At least, when I've described it to a friend, that's what she said I was. In fact, I'm really not sure if that's what it is because I am so young, but it's completely possible too. I think about him constantly and I get anxious for no reason at all. Today at work for example, I had butterflies all day which gave me a very unpleasant stomach ache! It was terrible! I'm worried because I feel so strongly about this, but I don't know how he feels. AH! I can kinda tell that he's at least attracted to me, and this is how it's been for a year now, but honestly, I don't know what to do with myself. He's the first boy to intimidate me, and with the way I look, I know I intimidate him too. We're both also too shy to really get into any deep conversations, and my mind goes blank whenever I'm around him. It's so frustrating! We're friends, of course, but I kinda want to be more. I don't know what to do with myself because we don't see enough of each other, but circumstances becoming the way they are, I will see him more. I've decided to get his phone number and get over my intimidation and start talking to him! But to be honest, I don't know what I'm doing since I've never had any luck in this area, and there's this other girl who lives in another state who's OBSESSED with him! So, naturally, I'm feeling a little jealous and thinking that she should stop worrying about it because he's here. And I'm here. Makes sense to me! Anyways, I just hope that I can learn something from this because it is seriously driving me crazy, and I know this is SOOO high school, but make a comment if you want, I could use impute. Thank you!
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Coming from an 18 year old freshman who misses high school, get his phone number!! Your 10 times better then the girl in another state, because you are infact in his state. Not to mention your totally gorgeous! Next time your around him, try and mentaly tell yourself your not worried. Confidence is everything:] Maybe bring up a movie or hobby and see if he has similar interests. Then you could ask him to do something along those lines with you. Make the first move, chances are he is dying inside just as much as you are! If you have a facebook, add him. That is always a good ice breaker, and it can help you get a little bit of a better understanding of who he is. Ohhh how funny love is. Just have fun:]
ReplyDeleteHAHA! Thanks, in fact, I did get his number and we are friends on facebook, and honestly, he is a REALLY cool guy, SUPER nice! I consider him a really good friend. In fact, I saw him at a football game a couple of days ago and talked to him, small talk of course, but still talked to him about his schooling and such. I don't really want to take it far right now because I want to get to know him a little bit better first, but I DO enjoy being around him so much. Thanks for saying that about the girl in the other state, you're so nice and that makes me feel good!
ReplyDeleteYou know what I realized! This boy is still WAYYYY cute and I'm still WAYYYYY attracted to him, but he's a boy! I've decided that I don't want a boy, I need a man! HAHA! That crush was quick! Well, if you consider all last year with a summer break in between, then, it was a long crush, but still...he's a little too young for me right now...still needs to go on a mission, gain mental, physical, spiritual, emotional experience in life...the man I end up with, is going to be truly amazing! Yay! God'll take care of me!
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